"Murali..." she called out as I came in to the heavily crowded KFC on a sunday afternoon... "Here.. I kept a seat " she said enthusiastically, I had to cross the heavily crowded 30 meters or so to reach the table she was at , on reaching there, she said .. "you are sweating, let me help you out .." I thought she will reach out in to her hand bag and wipe my forehead.. Instead she took over the tray in my hand.. I thought I was expecting more.
"There are some small things that change how we look on our life , isn't it?" she said looking in to my eyes. " I guess so ... Why do you say that ? "I asked thinking of all the possible reasons she could have thought about. " Nothing, there are a number of such small things that I experienced when I was with you that made me look at my life very differently .." she said looking down on her chicken burger, "I do not know what to say.. But .. you are very special to me and now that you are leaving India .. I feel lost .. Will you be calling me as frequently as you were doing here?" .. I looked at her .. She was looking directly in my eyes .. I know what she was expecting from me .. I feel that way too.. But Its never gonna happen with all the issues in my/her family. I did not want to tell her how I feel about her and disturb her again. She was just being recovering from her past. I could not lie looking in her eyes at the same time. " It may cost more to call that frequently, but ya.. I will surely try .." I said trying to bring the mood a little lighter. " I will miss you " she said , as little drops of water rolled over her cheeks from her eyes.. I do not know why.. but I said " I will miss you too .. do you want me to stay back? " ... " Will you do that for me?" she said with a bright shining in her eyes.
"Here you go .. This is where I say good bye " I said leaving her near her home.. She stood there thinking and staring at me. "Murali, I dont know if its correct to ask you this .. Do you like me?".
I was taken by surprise... " I said , yes , I do .. If it was some girl that I have liked in the recent years, It was you.. but nothing is going to happen between us. Its a no-no all together you know with all the caste thing.. " I said to only see her eyes flooding middle of the road. "Please control yourself ..." I looked around to see the possibility of people mis understanding . " I am sorry , I just wanted to confirm .. " she said and walked even without looking back at me. I thought It was the last time that I would see her after this episode. But, fate has something else in store and I did not knew it .
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Sunday, April 11, 2010
The happening part of my life !!
It was early in the morning around 4.00 AM, there was a knock at my room door and I hesitated that one of my other room mates would wake up and let our warden in so that he can torture us to get up and get ready and go to study hours ... But to my disappointment, no one got up.. and I had to as the knocking sound was like a heavy thud on my head as my bed was next to the door. I went up cursing all the heavenly shit I know and opened the door .. .. "Oh My god .... Holy shit ...!!! " this was my first reaction as I opened the door... A soft and soothing voice said " Yes son.. I am your god , but i will totally ignore your second statement as I know you did not mean it ... " I was like " Sir... God .. father ... what should I call you ?" ... The voice said " I would answer that later, but I wanted to grant you a wish in the first place .. so, buckle up and wish one " .. I was like ... Is he serious .. then I asked him something that redrawn the curves in my life there after .. Don't judge me .. its my age or you could say my "GUY" campus with no girls made me ask this ... " Hmm.. I need a co education campus for god sake ..." He said " I will grant you that .. not for my sake but for your well being ....or.... not ".. I was like what... when I suddenly woke up from that bizarre dream when my warden woke me up saying " Dude .. you are totally screwed .. its already late and your iit maths professor is so strict on his timings .." .... I went that day running to my class with out even brushing.. who cares ..its all in all a guy campus...
Our maths professor said " Guys, I have an announcement to make ...." I was like " God , are you kidding me ??" ... He then said " You will be having a test on Algebra tomorrow , be prepared ".. I was laughing on my self .. "you idiot .. it was totally a dream.. now shut up and prepare for the exam dumbo.." , later that it day , it actually happened .... which restored my faith on early morning dreams coming true ... It was announced that we , the 44 students of IIT batch will be shifted to the campus where we will be given coaching along with girls ... We heard it as ... " You , the lucky people of 44 in number , will be shifted in to a dream land where you will be given a chance to talk to the females.. every day... " ... The other batches when they knew this were like .." You lucky bas**rds. " and we were like " oh my god .. oh my god ..oh my god .." but every one hid their excitement in the class .. but that totally came out while they are packing.. " they are like ... high with six joints .. and were sweating to go and wash their clothes ..which they never did before... and also IRON them.. you don't know what it means for us in that campus to IRON the clothes. . Its only when " your mother comes " or " the chief minister of the state comes and gives you a neat hand shake " .. not even the sunday colours that would fly in to our campus got this privilege ...
But I was not so pumped up.. I was cool ..except that I arranged my blue shirt and only black jeans ready like 12 hours before and see that no one touches them as they may loose their folds.. it was totally natural.. except that I climbed up and down the stair case like 10-12 times so as to look slimmer .. I was just being health conscious you know... It was totally normal... except that I had all my books covered with clean brown sheet and labelled with mickey's stickers ... I was just being neat .. I was totally normal you know..
And some how the next morning was so far away... We had a discussion where we ended up deciding that we were excited not because there would be some other gender in there..but just that we would be having tough competitors in the name of the girls as they are well known for working hard... we were totally cool.. everyone went to sleep and that day was the only day that every one of us had a SHOWER .... that early in the morning.. We were sort of given a van , which would hardly fit half of us alone.. but we some how did not come in our way of going to a "well competitive" campus. we some how packed in all our luggage and all of us in and bid a good bye to our campus , remembered our friends there and thought ..... " You guys rot in this campus .. we are going to heaven..."
What all happened after that was very interesting for the most part of it.. one and half years in that campus with all of our friends.. some did not like me .. some did.. some I did not like.. some I did.. but every one of them are memorable.. will pen down some interesting situations that took place in that phase of my life in my next blogs.. this blog is already is long .. and i am sure most of you would have been fell asleep..
--cheers
Ohmi
Our maths professor said " Guys, I have an announcement to make ...." I was like " God , are you kidding me ??" ... He then said " You will be having a test on Algebra tomorrow , be prepared ".. I was laughing on my self .. "you idiot .. it was totally a dream.. now shut up and prepare for the exam dumbo.." , later that it day , it actually happened .... which restored my faith on early morning dreams coming true ... It was announced that we , the 44 students of IIT batch will be shifted to the campus where we will be given coaching along with girls ... We heard it as ... " You , the lucky people of 44 in number , will be shifted in to a dream land where you will be given a chance to talk to the females.. every day... " ... The other batches when they knew this were like .." You lucky bas**rds. " and we were like " oh my god .. oh my god ..oh my god .." but every one hid their excitement in the class .. but that totally came out while they are packing.. " they are like ... high with six joints .. and were sweating to go and wash their clothes ..which they never did before... and also IRON them.. you don't know what it means for us in that campus to IRON the clothes. . Its only when " your mother comes " or " the chief minister of the state comes and gives you a neat hand shake " .. not even the sunday colours that would fly in to our campus got this privilege ...
But I was not so pumped up.. I was cool ..except that I arranged my blue shirt and only black jeans ready like 12 hours before and see that no one touches them as they may loose their folds.. it was totally natural.. except that I climbed up and down the stair case like 10-12 times so as to look slimmer .. I was just being health conscious you know... It was totally normal... except that I had all my books covered with clean brown sheet and labelled with mickey's stickers ... I was just being neat .. I was totally normal you know..
And some how the next morning was so far away... We had a discussion where we ended up deciding that we were excited not because there would be some other gender in there..but just that we would be having tough competitors in the name of the girls as they are well known for working hard... we were totally cool.. everyone went to sleep and that day was the only day that every one of us had a SHOWER .... that early in the morning.. We were sort of given a van , which would hardly fit half of us alone.. but we some how did not come in our way of going to a "well competitive" campus. we some how packed in all our luggage and all of us in and bid a good bye to our campus , remembered our friends there and thought ..... " You guys rot in this campus .. we are going to heaven..."
What all happened after that was very interesting for the most part of it.. one and half years in that campus with all of our friends.. some did not like me .. some did.. some I did not like.. some I did.. but every one of them are memorable.. will pen down some interesting situations that took place in that phase of my life in my next blogs.. this blog is already is long .. and i am sure most of you would have been fell asleep..
--cheers
Ohmi
My Intermediate....
First off, let me tell you why this phase of my life is a very memorable one ... Till my 10th standard, I was kind of childish in my behavior, I did not know the real world ..well not a least bit of it... I had very good friends which I have posted in my previous post and had a well knit small world of my own.
But, when I was stepping out to college for my intermediate ,My father asked me " Are you sure you wanna go to Vijayawada and do this, I am sure our town have good intermediate colleges .. and they are totally into giving you fee exemption based on your tenth marks" .. I was kind of in a neutral mind set about it .. But my mother insisted that I go to Vijayawada for my education. I think that's one of the best decisions made by my mother. This landed me in one of the best cities and my most favorite city that I ever stayed .. Vijayawada ..
All was new and exciting except for the Hostel Food , as on when we were getting tuned in to the hostel frame work and how to deal with the fellow in-mates , We were given "Home sick Leave" , which ironically brought us to square one on the home sick thing... We came back after a refreshing, belly full 15 days with sagging faces and totally weak... More surprise was in store as we came back , we were being shifted to a main campus which is like _million_kms_ from the city and no building more than 8 feet tall in it's 1km radius.. It assumed a deserty look all through the week ... except on sundays when _parents_ come to visit their sons. We all used to dress up so neat and tidy only on that day hoping that a girl (one of our friends sisters or cousins) would turn up as if she will totally come and say " I love you" by just seeing our attire. It never happened :)
Few colorful sundays passed and selection of a hand ful of students , separation of that students from others and giving them a name of "IIT batch" happened in no time .. Most of us dont know what exactly is IIT or a childhood dream (most of the iit ians claim so) of getting in to IIT. Few classes went rather heavily on our brains.. few of them left saying .."What Shit .... I would not screw up my EAMCET coaching owing to this insane IIT coaching ..."
But few of us hanged on.. And today many of us guys feel that its a wrong decision .. but I think the hard work will pay off in some way or other ... Our campus was like in a lush green fields and when you see through the balcony window .. you will find a long stretch of road running perpendicular to the view... It was a night mare(rather, was it ??) for any girl in that area to cross that far stretched road when we were [almost about 700 teenage boys] in our break.. thats between 5.00 - 6.00 PM..
She would constantly listen the whistles from almost all the 8 floor balconies except the ground floor, where our campus officials stay.. kind of a terror zone one could say... If she turns her head sidewards and see our campus .. that's it .she had made mistake of her life .. the intensity of whistles grows and also accompanied by series of comments and questions like " Whats your name?" .. "Will you go out with me ?" .. "Hey , I have some thing to say ..." ........ She could not avoid it by anyway... she cannot switch in to any other road because it was a lone road.. there were some girls who were contrary to the popular behavior.. they used to wave back at us and its night mare for us to decide who was she exactly waving at .... Everybody has their own claims but I positively and whole heartedly think she waved at me :)
It was fun for the few days we lived there .. But more was yet to come and that's where my most beloved friends and my first crush happened ... Will save that for the next blog...
Cheers ,
Ohmi.
But, when I was stepping out to college for my intermediate ,My father asked me " Are you sure you wanna go to Vijayawada and do this, I am sure our town have good intermediate colleges .. and they are totally into giving you fee exemption based on your tenth marks" .. I was kind of in a neutral mind set about it .. But my mother insisted that I go to Vijayawada for my education. I think that's one of the best decisions made by my mother. This landed me in one of the best cities and my most favorite city that I ever stayed .. Vijayawada ..
All was new and exciting except for the Hostel Food , as on when we were getting tuned in to the hostel frame work and how to deal with the fellow in-mates , We were given "Home sick Leave" , which ironically brought us to square one on the home sick thing... We came back after a refreshing, belly full 15 days with sagging faces and totally weak... More surprise was in store as we came back , we were being shifted to a main campus which is like _million_kms_ from the city and no building more than 8 feet tall in it's 1km radius.. It assumed a deserty look all through the week ... except on sundays when _parents_ come to visit their sons. We all used to dress up so neat and tidy only on that day hoping that a girl (one of our friends sisters or cousins) would turn up as if she will totally come and say " I love you" by just seeing our attire. It never happened :)
Few colorful sundays passed and selection of a hand ful of students , separation of that students from others and giving them a name of "IIT batch" happened in no time .. Most of us dont know what exactly is IIT or a childhood dream (most of the iit ians claim so) of getting in to IIT. Few classes went rather heavily on our brains.. few of them left saying .."What Shit .... I would not screw up my EAMCET coaching owing to this insane IIT coaching ..."
But few of us hanged on.. And today many of us guys feel that its a wrong decision .. but I think the hard work will pay off in some way or other ... Our campus was like in a lush green fields and when you see through the balcony window .. you will find a long stretch of road running perpendicular to the view... It was a night mare(rather, was it ??) for any girl in that area to cross that far stretched road when we were [almost about 700 teenage boys] in our break.. thats between 5.00 - 6.00 PM..
She would constantly listen the whistles from almost all the 8 floor balconies except the ground floor, where our campus officials stay.. kind of a terror zone one could say... If she turns her head sidewards and see our campus .. that's it .she had made mistake of her life .. the intensity of whistles grows and also accompanied by series of comments and questions like " Whats your name?" .. "Will you go out with me ?" .. "Hey , I have some thing to say ..." ........ She could not avoid it by anyway... she cannot switch in to any other road because it was a lone road.. there were some girls who were contrary to the popular behavior.. they used to wave back at us and its night mare for us to decide who was she exactly waving at .... Everybody has their own claims but I positively and whole heartedly think she waved at me :)
It was fun for the few days we lived there .. But more was yet to come and that's where my most beloved friends and my first crush happened ... Will save that for the next blog...
Cheers ,
Ohmi.
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Some People come and go ..
"You think I am stubborn .. I felt the same way about you" she said on the phone with a streak of anger and disappointment in her voice... This is all because we could not make it to a _pre_arranged_gathering [Supposed to be a treat from her]..." I called you, but by that time you were not interested " I said in sort of a complaining fashion. "You called me way after the time we decided, and further you did not respond to my calls..." she complained.. "Okay, lets call it even then, next time .. we will surely meet " I tried to make a deal.... "Okay" she said, with a little hesitation.
But the "Next time" did not come , sadly.. I have been to that part of the woods after that 3 times and I did not have time to call her, neither she was interested in enquire when I was going to her place after that.. I am not complaining.. That's what the life is ... For some days, We think the other person is a good friend of you,on the next day .. You think twice before remembering them.. But the times we spend , though short ones will be very memorable.. If on someday, sometime .. If we cross each other, we think ... "Hey, she is the girl .. what's her name .. hmm... " and she is like " He does not even remember me ..."
Its not one's fault , some people are meant to come in to your life and go .. Some people hang on if they really see some potential, healthy friendship with you.. There are many reasons that those *some people* goes away from your life .. may be they are afraid that this is going too fast that could end up in trouble.. may be they think that the other person is not what really perceived them as before...may be she thinks " He is flirting with me .." ... may be they think that "Okay, so ..what if he is from so and so college, and works in so and so company.. I am no less than him...
I am sure the people come in to your life really mean something.. they come in for purpose .. let it be for a short time..But every one has their reason and you will learn unknowingly or knowingly from them.. For all those who came and went in my life including the above mentioned girl... Thanks everyone.. Hope to meet you soon.... You bring smile on me ....
--OHMI
But the "Next time" did not come , sadly.. I have been to that part of the woods after that 3 times and I did not have time to call her, neither she was interested in enquire when I was going to her place after that.. I am not complaining.. That's what the life is ... For some days, We think the other person is a good friend of you,on the next day .. You think twice before remembering them.. But the times we spend , though short ones will be very memorable.. If on someday, sometime .. If we cross each other, we think ... "Hey, she is the girl .. what's her name .. hmm... " and she is like " He does not even remember me ..."
Its not one's fault , some people are meant to come in to your life and go .. Some people hang on if they really see some potential, healthy friendship with you.. There are many reasons that those *some people* goes away from your life .. may be they are afraid that this is going too fast that could end up in trouble.. may be they think that the other person is not what really perceived them as before...may be she thinks " He is flirting with me .." ... may be they think that "Okay, so ..what if he is from so and so college, and works in so and so company.. I am no less than him...
I am sure the people come in to your life really mean something.. they come in for purpose .. let it be for a short time..But every one has their reason and you will learn unknowingly or knowingly from them.. For all those who came and went in my life including the above mentioned girl... Thanks everyone.. Hope to meet you soon.... You bring smile on me ....
--OHMI
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